The week after Payal’s confession about kissing Hassan and saying his cock felt better was the most intense yet. She was a mess of guilt, fear, and unwanted arousal. Every night she touched herself while crying. Twice I caught her with two fingers in her pussy and one finger pressing against her own ass — something she had never done before. When I asked her about it, she broke down.

“I keep thinking about him putting it there,” she whispered through tears. “In my… in my ass. I’ve never done that with anyone. Not even you. I’m scared it will hurt. I’m scared I’ll like it. I’m scared of what that would make me.”